Egg Retrieval…

Woke up at 11pm on Tuesday for W to give me my trigger shot. I was so paranoid about not waking up that I set alarms on both of our phones and even had one of my night shift friends text me to make sure it got done! He gave it to me in my arm and he did great! Hardly felt it.

I’ve progressively gotten more and more bloated and sore, especially after the trigger. The more active I was, the worse it got. Still, nothing too bad. I do however feel like I look like this…


I woke up this morning, the day of the egg retrieval, with some pretty good bloating and I was definitely the most sore I’ve been yet. We arrived at the office and were hurried to fill out the last bit of paperwork. I changed into my gown and they started an IV for fluids and access. They took me back, sedated me and before I knew it I was back in my recovery room. W said it took about 20 minutes.

Dr. S came by and said that things went great and they collected 12 eggs that were all mature.

I had a bit of nausea and got sick once after anesthesia but managed to eat something after I got home and I feel much better now. I was very crampy right after the retrieval but now as I’m resting, it’s not bad. They start to come back if I get up and move around but overall I feel pretty good!

The plan is to rest today and wait for the call tomorrow to see how many of the 12 eggs fertilized! Fingers crossed!

Will infuse for cupcakes..


Results from the infamous unnecessary, necessary MRI are back. Normal! That means that they didn’t see anything (fibroids, etc.) in my uterus that could cause problems with the embryo implanting when we get to that point.
Today was my at home intralipids infusion day. IL is what they use to treat Natural Killer cells and this is what my nurse had to say about it..
“Natural Killer cells are a normal part of everyone’s immune system. They are what patrol our bodies trying to keep foreign things out of our bodies. Some people have Natural Killer cells that are a little more aggressive. In normal life, this is usually a good thing. Maybe they don’t get sick as often, or if a bad cold is going around it won’t hit them as hard. Natural Killers don’t realize there is a difference between embryos and germs though. They just see something is foreign and doesn’t belong and end up trying to keep the embryo from implanting inside the uterus. Dr. S has found that doing an Intralipids Infusion can help to calm these aggressive Natural Killer cells down to allow embryos a chance to implant inside the uterus. There would be an infusion prior to starting the monitoring process. After the embryo transfer if you are confirmed pregnant, there would be a second infusion done.”
Since I work in the medical field, they allowed me to do an at home infusion. Thankfully one of my wonderful friends agreed to swap cupcakes for helping me start an IV. Everything went well and the infusion lasted about 1.5 hours. The Stuffed French Toast cupcake was amazing. I have missed this particular cupcake shop!
W is back from Finland and we have plans to see family tomorrow before leaving for 2 weeks for our appointments. It’s really happening!!

To the lady who told me I needed a full bladder..

Special blessings to you today. May you feel the need to pee all. night. long..
I had my unnecessary,necessary MRI today. The lady scheduling it told me to drink 32oz of water in the hour or so leading up to the MRI. “Huh”, I thought. Sounded strange for an MRI but I didn’t want to sound like an idiot so I didn’t question it. I arrive and the tech performing it asks if I need to use the bathroom. This is probably what my face looked like..

I tell her what the lady said and she tells me that a full bladder isn’t required for an MRI. Tinkle I go.. Fast forward 40 minutes..

Tech over the speaker: “We are having trouble getting clear images. We need you to stay really still.”

Me: “I am still. I’m not moving. Ehh.. How much longer? I really, really have to go to the bathroom!”

Tech: “Oh! That’s probably it. It’s probably distorted from you clenching trying not to pee.”

I would assume my face looked like this as she pulled the table out for me to get up..


Upon completion..
Tech over speaker: “Ok, we are done. Yeah, that must have been it because the images after that were clear.”

So after my 2 hour, never-ending, bladder filling, bladder emptying, bladder filling, bladder emptying, unnecessary, necessary MRI… Bless you scheduling lady. I have no other words.

In other news: Interview, check. MRI, check. Started my stims tonight! Sure hope those results are good!

So much for the relaxation…


Does it always have to be two steps forward, one step back with this process? I had a good morning with good results from my baseline ultrasound and it looks like I should be all set to start my stims tomorrow! (Now that I have taken injections to tell my body to be quiet, these new injections will attempt to hyper-stimulate my ovaries to produce more ‘mature’ eggs than normal.

I had been dealing with a local fertility clinic and switched to another out-of-state clinic for IVF when I wasn’t pleased with the care we had been receiving. This clinic still performed my outside monitoring and did such recently. Or so I thought! My new clinic called me this afternoon and informed me that they still had not received some labs that I had drawn as well as the results of a fluid ultrasound. After lots of phone tag, I was finally able to reach someone at my old clinic who found out that the laboratory they use never ran the labs that were drawn and ordered! On top of that.. They did the WRONG ULTRASOUND! I needed this ultrasound done before my period started and now it’s too late.

New clinic nurse says that my RE does not feel comfortable proceeding to the point of embryo transfer without having the results of that ultrasound (the one that never got done and is too late to do now). {{Cue the profuse sweating, world is closing in. I think I’m going to be sick}} She tells me that we could proceed, freeze the embryos and then come back at another time for frozen transfer or that we could delay the cycle. {{Hyperventilating}} It’s not that easy when you’re flying to another state to do this, not to mention when your husband is traveling overseas on a weekly basis for work! Then she slipped in that another option is for me to have a pelvic MRI, or rather a pelvic $$$ to rule out anything that would interfere with embryo transfer/implantation. Of course I jump on that offer! Thank God insurance is going to pay 85% of it. Part Most of me feels like the clinic that messed it up should eat the cost! So now my list this weeks looks like : interview for new job, start stimulation meds, have labs redrawn, schedule and have MRI, pack for our 2 week IVF “vacation”, take the dogs to the vet, 2 more rounds of acupuncture, meet with 2 contractors so they can bid some work on the house, hire a painter to paint the interior, oh and finish unpacking my entire house- all with a husband in Finland who is returning home the day before we leave. So much for low stress and relaxation! Maybe it’s a hidden gift in that it will keep my mind occupied making sure I get everything done! Enough ranting. I shall remain positive. What else have you got? Bring it at me!!!!

**In other news, I may or may not have made a huge mistake by asking my wonderful friend to chop 6″ off of my hair! In hindsight, it was probably hormone induced but I haven’t cried. Yet. (Note to self: no more major decisions on hormones.)


Pinch the fat.

Image  It’s Lupron time! No, my meds did not arrive on time. I had to find a pharmacy in town that stocked Lupron. I found one near me and it was going to be $300 more than the original price that was quoted! Thank goodness for the few kind people left in this world. After trying a couple discount cards that I had found, the pharmacy tech pulled a card out of a stack of papers and said, “Let me try this one. That’s a lot of money to spend”. (Bless her heart. Isn’t it horrible that after paying for *the cycle* we blow off a $470 med?) Well, it worked! I actually ended up getting it for $30 CHEAPER than the original price. It’s the little things!

On another note, the moving truck should be rolling in with our furniture and another one of our cars tomorrow! Yay! Unpacking, boo!




As boxes started piling up, I realized that a month from this day could potentially be right around my time for egg retrieval. I have a lot left to accomplish in that time. The movers finish packing for us tomorrow. We leave Friday, drive 6 hours. Sleep. Wake up. Drive 6 hours. Arrive back home to KC. Oh, but our belongings won’t arrive until Wednesday the 5th. My husband conveniently leaves for London on the 3rd! Looks like I’ll be handling the unpacking with a few friends and family members! Not a bad time to enjoy my last couple glasses of wine, eh?
I can’t help but think of all of the things I wanted to do before starting this first IVF cycle. If only I would have lost the holiday pounds I packed on. If only my diet were better. Should I be taking all of these crazy supplements I see people talking about? Should I be doing acupuncture? I’ve been so excited about IVF the past couple of months but as the time approaches I find myself battling the “what ifs”. What if it works? What if it doesn’t? What if I have to tell everyone that it didn’t work? What if I have just wasted all of this money and time? What if I feel guilty about it not working? What will my family think? What will my husband think? It’s incredibly hard to stay positive sometimes. People ask how I feel and I say, “excited!”.. Who are we kidding. We are all scared shitless. Don’t lie!
On a lighter note, I’ve compiled a list of thing I could have purchased instead of paying for IVF! They are as follows:
-Track chimpanzees in Uganda and observe mountain gorillas in Rwanda, climb Kilimanjaro and then cap it off with some relaxation for 13 days on a ship in Fiji. (According to Nat Geo Expeditions)
-23,409 crunchy tacos
-2,317 lbs of chicken salad chick
-18 MacBook pros
-over 5,000 Smallcakes cupcakes
-463 shellac manicures
-32,640 tennis balls

It’s Vegas, Baby?

We’ve been married over 5 years and trying to conceive just as long. (I can say the “It’s not you, it’s me” line to my husband if you know what I mean). We’ve tried everything we can and now we have committed to taking the next step with IVF! It’s an exciting and trying time but we are looking forward to it. Here’s a brief summary.

The things we’ve tried:

  • An OB’s recommendation to “Think like a teenage mom. They never seem to have a problem getting knocked up.”
  • A family practice physician’s recommendation to “Stop stressing and have sex every night.”
  • 4 rounds of Clomid.
  • 3 rounds of Letrozole.
  • 4 IUIs including 2 all injectable Follistim IUIs

After the hormone induced tomato throwing, laughing so hard I’m crying, hot flashing fury, the time has come. We will be in Las Vegas 2/23-3/8 and hopefully what happens in Vegas doesn’t stay in Vegas!